We are ALL struggling to varying degrees on some days because this is not an easy thing we are going through.

The world of Coronovirus / COVID19 sucks.  There is no other word for it. We all need to be able to hit the pause button, or should hit the pause button, but so many aren’t, are they? And so many can’t.  Their head is stuck on a loop of uncertainty.

I have not cried at all over this thing we’re all stuck in… until this morning.  CBS This Morning honored some of the dead. Yes, those who died from Coronovirus.  A young firefighter from Chicago.  And the one that really got me? A mom who was my age who died and her son with Down’s Syndrome a few days later.

Did I know any of these people? No, but I cried just the same.  This could be any of us right now.

This crapola is real, people.  And no, Lysol isn’t going to save us so for God’s sake ignore that suggestion from our President to inject disinfectants.  And no, it’s not fake news. Just the verbal meanderings of an utter narcissist.

I know people are delaminating, and rainy days don’t help.  But there are people with real troubles so I have a problem with the attention seekers.  These people are popping up on social media.  They are freaking out friends and acquaintances.

Suffice it to say, things I do not respect include people threatening to harm themselves… just for attention.

Please do NOT cry wolf for attention.

Why? Because it means when someone is truly in crisis, help might not get there in time.

I have seen it happening and the other day someone who is not someone I personally know freaked a lot of people out.  Not very nice. And very, very selfish.

 

 

Maybe I sound hard-hearted here.  I am not.  I think this person probably really needs help.  I hope they get help.  But I have lost people in my life who were friends to suicide.  They didn’t warn us.  They didn’t announce anything on social media or elsewhere. They just did it.  And left lots of people to pick up the pieces.  It’s a heartbreaking thing that haunts those left behind.  But I think in a time like this to cry wolf is perhaps even more awful.

 

 

So again, please don’t cry wolf.  Please.  We are all having good and bad days right now.   I have a friend who is living with a man whom I know is delaminating.  This person has been completely irrational and I am worried about my friend.  Part of me wishes he would just pack up and leave.  He is creating a verbal and emotional reign of terror.

Whether we have families we are home with or even if we are living alone, this COVID19 existence is lonely.  I for example hate the hashtag #TogetherApart because in my head it’s #TogetherAlone, which is so depressing.

 

 

Even a homebody like me wants to get out of the house. But I know I have to stay home. I miss my friends and my family.  I miss my routine.  I miss normalcy.

Except I can’t help but wonder what normal will mean and what normal will become when restrictions are lifted?  What will be our new normal going forward? Going back in time to the last global pandemic, don’t you wish we had some survivors of that to talk to?  To learn what their lives were like and what changed?  What became their new normal?

 

History seems to go on a loop.  Just when we think we’ve learned, history repeats itself.  How can we actually learn from history so it sticks?

A friend of mine said today that her emotions are very close to the surface these days.  That resonates.  We all are living a heightened emotional existence to an extent  because nothing much is normal.  And some days I think we all do have to dig deep to stay positive and to be present.

I wish personally some days I could turn my head off.  But I have to remind myself we don’t know what is next, and not to borrow trouble.  We have to believe. I am grateful my family is alright near and far.  I am grateful I have a garden I can tend and a home I can nest in.

The song videos? Just songs I have listened to this week on Spotify playlists. You have to have music in your life. No particular underlying meaning.  Just songs I like that appeared on playlists this week.

Hit the pause button. Listen to some music.  Remember the blessings we do have all around us even in a world full of turmoil and uncertainty.

I will close with a quote a friend of mine put up:

He will feed his flock like a shepherd. He will carry the lambs in His arms, holding them close to his heart.
Isaiah 40:11a